As I’m sitting in bed with the lights off, tv on, and laptop by my side, Carter is pitching a fit across the hall. It is now 12:30 am and he is still awake. Everytime there is silence at the other end of the hall, I hold my breath, hoping that he has finally decided to give up and go to sleep. Well, considering I just heard another whine, I’m going to breathe a sigh of frustration. Why won’t this kid go to sleep???!!! He just keeps crying and saying “EEEEEEEEEEEE” (yes, that’s the letter E repeated). I’m not sure why, but that’s his expression. Happiness, sadness, fear, doesn’t matter…. “eeeeeeeeeeee” is what he says.
I’m currently working on my research paper topic for graduate school and I am totally lost and confused. I have no idea what I am doing and since it is waaaaaaaaaaaaay past my bedtime I am starting to care less about this damn paper. Tomorrow (or should I say today) will be a busy day and so will the rest of the week, considering I have to pack everyone and prepare for the trip to Dallas. I have to pack up the kids, which means for Carter I have to pack the whole house. I’m still so nervous about leaving him for a few days even though he will be at my mom’s house. Taking him out of his element and being away from him for more than a day just leaves me with a worried feeling. Besides packing myself and the kids, I have to make sure I get all of my school work completed and the bills paid before hand, because I DO NOT want to have to worry about this stuff while I’m on vacation. Or when I come back, for that matter.
Hopefully all goes well and I can relax and have some fun before it’s back to life, back to reality.
I’m wondering if I should just call it quits for now and continue this mess tomorrow. I just dread this research paper. It’s only the beginning and I’m already stuck, showing signs of stress and frustration. This paper is causing me major anxiety and I haven’t even started it yet!
I’m so tired right now I don’t even feel like picking up the laptop or my books that are squeezed in between myself and Q, who is snoring next to me. I wish I were sleeping that peacefully right now. Hell, I wish Carter were sleeping that peacefully right now. I just heard another short whine from him, so I’m hoping that since his cries are getting shorter, they will eventually disappear and in the next 5 minutes he will be knocked out. (I won’t hold my breath on that one).
I guess it’s time for me to call it a night.
Until next time,
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